Bonnie Hunt Makes Me Smile When I Need It The Most

So Very Tired!!!

Four years ago when this picture was taken, I remember looking at it and thinking what a wonderful time I had in Banff.. I felt as alive and strong as this picture made me look.

The year is now 2009 and I would give just about anything to look and feel now the way I did when this picture was taken.

I was a good 15 pounds lighter in this picture my body didn't hurt on a daily basis.. I loved getting up each day.. I walked tall feeling and knowing nothing was going to stop me when I wanted or needed to do something.

My husband and I had just made the decision that I would just be a stay at home mom while we waited for our referral. At the time of this picture I loved life and all it had to offer.

So as you can imagine it's a mystery to me how in a few short years the picture of me is so different. It feels like it been a slippery slope, but I look in the mirror and really don't know who I am anymore. I could tell you each day what it is I DON'T want to do but I am unable to tell you what it is I want to do. So much of my day I feel that I am just going through the motions but I am NOT really in the moment that I live in the land of FOG.

What ever is going on is effecting my physical well being, as well as my emotional well being. I have NO interest in being with family, extended family or friends.. I have no desire to take a trip or just go shopping. Even my beloved Chocolate has started to taste sour as the pounds keep pileing on.

I am smart enough to know that something must be wrong... You just don't go from A to Z for know good reason. About six weeks ago I started back to daily exercising, 30 minuets Monday to Friday on the elliptical trainer. Typically once I start to get moving any weight I might have put on would drop off within a week or two... You can imagine my surprise when after 6 weeks I stepped on the scale to see I had put on 5 more pounds and my clothes were fitting me a little more snugly. WHAT IT GOING ON!!!

I have a sneaking suspicion what's happening is none other then the early signs of menopause or more affectionately know as Peri menopause. That would explain the physical changes as well as the emotional changes... At my yearly physical this week I had a list of blood tests I wanted my Doctor to run ... I am hoping something comes from these test.

So ladies... "These Are The Days Of My Lives" and right now it SUCKS!!!!!

Just look at this picture... In my dreams this is what I hoped for when Reegan went to the dentist this week for her first filling. A calm relaxed child!!!!

Unfortunately... this picture better depicts what Reegan felt was going to happen to her!

It started off well.. She got into the dentist chair fine. Allowed the dentist to put the numbing meds on the gum. I was feeling pretty good about this, my little girl was being very brave.

Then WHAM! BAM!!! in a blink of an eye, almost as if someone had switched children... the needle was about to go in and her jaw's clamped shut. It took me a good 30 minuets to stop the tears and panic... The poor thing really wanted to have this filling done, she didn't want to have a cavity, her fear of the needle was just so terrifying. Finally she promised she would try one more time. She was very scared and didn't like having the needle in her mouth but she did it. Once the freezing was working she was a trooper about having the cavity filled.

Dear Anonymous

THANKS FOR THE SPELLING CORRECTION!!!

However I would appreciate you NOT taking the Lord's name in vain!!

A Wonderful Concert

Tuesday evening I went to see Diana Krall.. David won the tickets at the luncheon we attended a few weeks back.

She did not disappoint. Her music for half of her set was backed up by an orchestra, our seats were bang on and the sound was truly amazing!!!

Thanks again to Lite 96!!!!

A Wonderful Easter Weekend

Reegan Adding the sugar and Cinnamon

The finished pie... Yum Yum

Our weather couldn't have been better... It was truly spring all weekend. On Good Friday my mom came over and baked apple and pumpkin pies... Reegan was over joyed with baking... She even made a pie all by herself, from the rolling of the pastry to the filling and finally putting the top on...

We had our Easter dinner on Saturday evening this year...We shared a wonderful Turkey dinner with my parents and David's parents.

The Easter Bunny did not disappoint this year... Once again the kids had fun running around the house filing there baskets full of chocolate Easter Eggs. Ryker decided to be too mature for Easter hunting and decided to let the little kids find them around the house.

I Just Found Them!!!

Too cool to hunt but NOT to cool to eat!!!

HAPPY EASTER !!!!!!

Don't you just LOVE tulips? Seeing tulips in the stores can't help but make you feel like spring is just around the corner. Easter would not be Easter if these wonderful flower's were not around!!!

Have a wonderful Easter Everyone... I hope the Easter Bunny is good to your kids and to you as well!!!!!

A Few Pictures To Share

I haven't had much use for Tricycles. All three of my children have been given one and each time the same problem occurs... The pedals are too far forward and they are not able to make the bike go. I learned my lesson with Reegan and today I went out a got her a small bike with training wheels... As soon as she sat on the bike at Wal-Mart she was able to pedal like a pro.. She was so proud of herself when Reegan came home and she could ride her bike just like her big sister... She doing very well but still needs some work with her steering.

Larkyn first Night Gown. These used to be Miss Reegans... They look so cute on Miss Larkyn

The best for last... On the weekend Reegan went to her grandmother's house to do there yearly tradition of Easter crafts... Once again David's mother out did herself helping Reegan to create this wonderful Easter Bunny Basket.

The Dog Whisperer

It's been over six years since I had a dog. Emma was a beautiful Golden Retriever. Unfortunately I was the primary care giver and when Reegan came along I wasn't able to give her the time she needed. I made the decision to find her a home where she would be the baby of the family. I was lucky enough to find the right people for her, but I think and miss Emma often.

A few weeks ago I stumbled upon the show "The Dog Whisper" I had heard of it before but really hadn't watched the show before. After watching just one show it was like a light bulb went on. I suddenly realized that all of Emma's behaviour problems were 100% my doing. I was not her pack leader. I can now look back and see how I could have helped Emma with her anxiety's and her aggression with other dogs.

Even though we know longer have a dog I am totally hooked with watching this show... and I know someday if I do choose to have another dog I will be prepared.

Cesar and his best dog Daddy

Surviving The Game

Since I started this blog, my husband has made a point to tease me about it when ever possible. I am sure some of you blogger can relate.

Well guess WHO has a blog??? Yup... You Guessed it... The one, the only "The Mocker himself!!!

I am sure right about now you are riveted wondering what he's decided to blog about. I can assure you it's nothing as important or as interesting as what we like to blog about. LOL

INVESTING... or more to the point Options!!!! Don't EVEN ask me what it's all about.. As soon as he starts to talk to me about it... I get that glazed looked over my eyes and start to picture myself in a far off land eating chocolate. That being said what I do know is what ever he's been doing seems to work... Many of or friends and people all over the world this year where devastated in the market... Like most everyone we certainly didn't make the mother load ... but we did manage to survive better then most, so he's must know what he's doing....

Just between you and ME.. He's very smart and he knows a lot about this sort of stuff. Not that I will EVER admit that to him directly. lol

I personally have no use for this sort of blog but you might or you might know someone who would enjoy what he has to say... If that the case here's his blog address..

www.optionsguynewsletter.blogspot.com

PS: Go on to his blog just to make his blog counter go up... It will make his day!!!!!

Some of You Ladies May Be Able To Relate

So here it is... Men should NOT be allowed to stay at home doing nothing for more then two weeks at a time.

Here' s the deal. For the last 13 years my husband has worked outside of the home while I worked in the home. Then last year my husband franchises his company. Sounds Great right? His long hours out of the house in the evenings are a thing of the past. He can now spend more time with the kids, do things with us on the weekends. It's all sounding very nice isn't?

Now fast forward a year later. Ladies he's driving me NUTS!!!!!! Because I am at home all day I really need that time each day when Larkyn is napping or having quite time and I can just be left alone... It never fails as soon as the my quite time arrives more often then not, there he is.. just looming around... Going on my computer, talking on the phone, or WORSE he wants to talk to me!!!!! He now is getting into some of my shows that I PVR on the TV.. To make it worse he doesn't just sit beside me watching it,, he manages to sit in front of me in the hopes I will rub his back.

No wonder I've put on 15lb's... am feeling stressed to max.. Most days I find myself trying to find a place in the house were NO one will find me.

I truly love my husband of 16 years but I can't have him just hanging around.

There does seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel. He's had a few days in the last two weeks were he's actually been working out of the house, a sign that GOD truly does answer ones prayers.

As I type this Post he's downstairs working in his office.. But since he's been home this afternoon he's put things on the counter that I just cleaned, he's left the garage door open AGAIN,,, I don't even want to get into what he did to the toilet upstairs!!! After typing this Larkyn will be having a nap.. and you know WHO will suddenly appear from his office ... HE MIGHT EVEN SUGGEST WE GO UPSTAIRS FOR SOME CUDDLE TIME!!!!!

I know some of you ladies who read my blog might give me some flak about this Post, I do have a wonderful husband. He spoils me and treats me with kindness often. I just wish he would do all those things after he's been out of the house all day!!!!!

I am such a terrible person!!!!!

Some This and That

Reegan and Larkyn on St Patricks Day. Larkyn LOVED wearing the headband with the shamrocks on them. Reegan's class made Leprechaun traps in the hopes of catching one. Once again there attempt to catch a Leprechaun failed !!!

We are still not going on the potty yet... I decided to start to put her in Dora pull-ups it's a start and she loves the Dora on them as well she can almost pull them up herself.

Thank's Lite 96

So I am sitting in my car one morning listening to Lite 96 while I wait for Ryker's school bus, and once again I hear the Jet go and hear another lucky person win a trip for two to Mexico.

As I am hearing this I realize all this person did to win a trip was pick up the phone... There must be a catch to this,,, it can't be that simple,, so I listen a little longer and there it is "the catch".. the strings to winning these wonderful prizes... "YOU HAVE TO BE A VIP PLATINUM MEMBER" I knew it!!!! I knew it... The radio host tell us all you have to do is to go to Lite 96 web site and join,, and the prizes will just fall into your lap. Who are they trying to kid!!! "I was not born yesterday!!!"

After what seemed like forever "actually two minutes on there web page" I was an official VIP Member.

Fast forward a month later... I am sitting at Centini's Restaurant with five guest of my choosing and Joanne & The Coach the radio hosts I listen to each morning, dining on some of the best food I have tasted in years.

But lets not stop there... at this lunch they have a draw... Yup you guested it my husband won two tickets to see Diana Krall next month. Life can be an amazing, and today was one of those days!!

All of this just because I joined the VIP Platinum Club!!!!

Thank-you Lite 96 and Don... Joanne & The Coach!!!!!

http://www.lite96.ca

P.S. Unfortunately Don was not able to attend this luncheon, we missed meeting him !!

David, Me, Dell, Lisa and The Coach

Lisa and The Coach

My Honey and ME!!!

Me, Joanne and Dell

My Dear Friends Pam & Warren

So Very True!!!

Happy St. Patti's Day

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