THIS JUST IN!!!!

I just spoke to Bob at FOI and he has confirmed that we did indeed get on this months ferral list!!!!! To his knowledge they have not yet sent them, but he told me to relax and get ready for her referral next week!!!!! HURRAY!!!!!!!!

This Just Might Send Small Children Screeming!!!!

I woke up this morning feeling very confused... you see I feel quite certain that we made the cut for referrals as our LID is November 4 2005 and I get so excited just at the thought that my phone will ring very soon.

On the flip side I have had the pleasure of getting to know some wonderful families from Canada who's LID date's are past the 7th and the rumours are they will not get there referrals. How can this be!!!!

Our agency sent us a list over 18 months ago with names of couples who would most likely be travelling together and over the last 18 months I have kept in contact with some of those couples. I am very discouraged for those families. They have waited as patiently as we have and they certainly don't deserve to have to wait another month.

In truth none of us deserve this wait,, and even more truthful I suppose those little girls and boys did not deserve to be abandon.

I will keep my hopes up and try and think that maybe the rumours are wrong, that the CCAA did get past November 9th.

Who Would You Be?????

If you were to ask David he would say that on most day's I am Forgetful, and on occasions psycho!!

If you were to ask me I would have to fess up to the Bloaty, Sleepy and I think there was a third,, but I just can't seem to remember it!!!!

My dear Sister sent them to me!!! Thanks Debbie

Spring Planting

For the past three years while Reegan has been going to Little Learners Preschool, each mother's day the kids give us a beautiful Marigold that they have planted as a seed. Each year I have had Reegan transplant it into a pot on our deck and they grow into the most beautiful flower's.

So Today was the day to move the baby plant out into the big world. Reegan put a lot of love and care to ensure her plant, "My Mother's Day gift" would feel snug as a bug in it's new home.

Thank you Ms Kay for three years of those wonderful flower's... I will miss my spring marigold next year!!!

Maybe I Should Have Just Stayed In Bed Today!!

I am not a person who believes in superstitions... I don't believe in bad luck. I do however believe in thinking positive thoughts to get a positive result. So I am not sure were today went wrong. I woke up very positive,,, firstly I got to sleep in which always makes me feel wonderfully refreshed. After a great breakfast I was able to go for a nice walk with the kids. The sun was shining and there was no sign of the snow we had three days ago. After our walk it was off to Reegans Ballet. This my dear friends is where it all started to turn. Now remember at this point I am still feeling and thinking positively. Reegan had gotten her ballet outfit on in record time so unlike most Saturday's I was not running late. As I started down the road with the sun roof open a thought came to me!!! FRAPPACHINO...FRAPPACHINO!!! It was the weekend so I could indulge in a delicious Java Chip Frap with peppermint and whipped cream. I went inside the StarBucks still feeling positive, stopped to notice they now have an orange cream Frap for the summer contemplated getting that instead but kept focused on the mission at hand. I ordered some banana bread for Reegan and decided to order two Fraps so I could get one for my friend Maya to enjoy as well. I was very careful exiting the store with my two Frap's and banana bread.... I managed to get my car door open without any trouble... Then as quickly and as unpredictable as a woman who's PMSing is, one of my two Frap's somehow fell from my hand and EXPLODED everywhere. As I recall it in my mind now it was like a funny movie where the scene slows down and the actor goes into slow motion screaming in a slowed down voice that's very deep saying NOOOOOOOO!!!

Let me tell you I have seen some very BIG messes in my time,, but this my friends was more then I could bare. The entire Frap was on both front seats "Thank God for Leather" I am sure if the sunroof had been closed that to would have been covered. The dash, steering wheel and the carpet covered in chocolate Frap and whipped cream. I took a moment to look back at Reegan who looked shell shocked at the mess. The first thing she said was "I am glade it wasn't my mess" Seeing the distress on my face she did remind me that it was O.K. accidents happen!!! Oh and don't forget we were on are way to Ballet a head of schedule!!! Well that was out the window now.... I must say the staff at StarBucks were great... they even replaced my Frap for free... We managed to get things cleaned up enough to head out for Ballet and only managed to be 5 minuets late.

So the worst for this day must be over right???? Well that's what I thought. I went home and cleaned the car from top to bottom, no problem's accrued while doing this. After that Ryker had a friend over and the kids spend the rest of the day in the pool... All the while I am thinking positive... putting the entire Frap incident out of my mind. Ryker goes out with his friend to see a movie, Reegan goes to bed without a hitch, David and I spend the evening watching TV all is well.

Ryker comes in after the show and I go down the stairs to talk to him... BAM!!!!! I am still not sure how it happened but the next thing I remember is my feet coming from out under me, my bottom landing on the end of the hardwood stair and my upper left shoulder feeling like someone just hit it with a sledge hammer. Down... down... down I went at least five stairs in total... My wonderful son rushed to my side instantly to see if I was OK.

It's strange the things that go through ones mind after a trauma like that. My first though was did I break anything, and was I actually going to through up because it sure felt like I should have. My second thought was "Great David will be going on and on about me insisting on putting hardwood on those stairs" " he was NOT a big supporter of that" So there I lie,, wiggling my fingers and toes to ensure they all work and wondering.

" MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE JUST STAYED IN BED TODAY!!!

Just a note for those of you who feel great sympathy for what happened to me,, you can let me know, and I would be happy to forward my address to you so you can send comforting gifts!!!

GIFT SUGGESTION'S

1. A PILLOW ( for my but now looking very black and blue)
2. A grown up pair of socks that have the rubber words on the bottom ( so this never happens again)
3. A self cleaning car cleaner if they every make one.

FIVE MORE DAYS

The last time I felt like this was five days before Christmas Morning last year. Actually I get this feeling every Christmas, I have since I can remember. The difference being my excitement at Christmas was because I new Santa was coming and if I had been very well behaved all year he would try his best to bring me the present I had asked him for.

Well as I sit here typing this out I have that same sense of excitement... The type were you just want to giggle incessantly and for no apparent reason. But I guess I do have a reason. You see I am hoping and praying that in five days we will be on alert!!! Alert for what you ask. Good Question!!! We will be on alert for our phone to ring and on the other end there will be a voice that says those words we have waited two years to hear. "We have your referral" I am smart enough to know that it most likely.... probably not.... it would be a miracle if it did... but we will not hear on the 1st of June... But we Could... couldn't we... I mean why not!!!!! In any case if it's not the 1st it might be the 2nd.. or the 3rd.. Each night that I go to bed will be like Christmas Eve... I will go to sleep each night after the 1st hoping that the next day I will get the gift I am truly hoping for!!!

Merry Adoption Everyone!!!!

I Can Not Believe This Weather

Firstly let me say that I love the winter months. I am probably the only one in my family who Love's to see the white stuff fall from the sky.

But people please,,, I wake up this morning to a steaming pool outside and our trees have so much wet snow on them there branches are about to fracture.

I feel so badly for those who last weekend spend there long weekend outside lovingly planting all those summer flowers, and now they have a garden full of frostbitten perennials.

By the end of today most in not all of the snow seems to have melted away and we certainly need the moisture, but really would rain not have sufficed?

I hope everyone else in other Countries, Province's and Cities are having a better weather day then we did.

Over the last few weeks, Save Darfur Coalition activists have sent 151,507 emails and faxes to Fidelity Investments, calling on it to cut its ties to companies like PetroChina, that provide financial support to the genocidal Sudanese government.

The result? Fidelity listened!

Last week, Fidelity announced that it had greatly reduced its holdings of PetroChina, one of the "highest offending" companies helping fund the genocide.

This is a truly promising development in the effort to divest for Darfur.

We must keep the pressure on the Chinese government, which is not just the majority shareholder in PetroChina, but also Sudan's largest foreign investor, a major political supporter, and a key arms provider.

In fact, the Chinese government recently demonstrated its support of the Sudanese regime by providing a $13 million loan to build Omar al-Bashir a new presidential palace. Most disturbingly, China sells arms to Sudan, weapons which are used by government forces and the Janjaweed militia to maim and kill innocent Darfuris.

It's time for China to fully invest itself in ending the genocide by using its unmatched influence to convince Sudan to cooperate with international efforts to end the violence and build a lasting peace in Darfur.

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While Fidelity's announcement is a positive step, victory will be achieved only when the people of Darfur are safe.

And China has the power and influence to help make that possible.

China must lead the world in pressuring Sudan to follow through on its commitments to cooperate with international efforts to end the violence.

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Preschool Field Trip

What a great day!!! I certainly didn't have to tell Reegan twice to get up for school. She was more then ready to go on her field Trip. This year the Jr. K's were going to the Telus World of Science.


I was fortunate this year to be able to volunteer. My responsibly was to not lose the three kids I was given to keep a watchful eye on. A big thanks to Reegan, Lindsey and Nicolas for not loosing me!!!!

We all got to ride on a big yellow school bus, (the back of course) I don't remember the last time I was on a school bus.

Things went very smoothly,, the kids had a tone of fun... I personally loved the music floor. How great is a wall you can colour on!!! Reegan tried the bed of nails, (she's so brave). While Nicolas kept busy at the ball launch rearranging the wall. Oh thay also had this really cool Velcro wall with lots of soft shapes to stick on it. I want to find a way to do that in our little ones room what a great idea.

It was very interesting to eat lunch at a table of five year old's. Firstly I can't remember the last time I had to pack a lunch for myself and having to set a good example I couldn't exactly pack if full of junk. But in the end,,, all the food was eaten and no major spills. My man Nicolas was quite the gentleman, he shared all his goodies with the two girls, I have to say way to go Lori, you pack a good lunch!!!

We finished off the day with a movie in the science dome. The bus ride home did not disappoint, there were tones of bumps along the way, which made for riding in the back a very exciting trip.



I was so glade to be able to participate in this years field trip, the kids were great and it's always fun to watch them explore and have fun amongst themselves.

Thank's Reegan, Lindsey and Nicolas for being such great listeners!!!!!!!

QUESTION

I am looking for a good book on attachment!!! I want to read up on what to look for and how I can assist with her bonding with us.

If you have read any good books on this please let me know.

Thanks

A Lack of Basic Will Power

So here is my problem ladies.. I am in my 39th year and I have always tried to eat healthy and exercise regularly. My one big down fall is my addiction to chocolate!! I will eat it every day, and not just a nibble sometimes it can be quite a lot.

I have been very fortunate because eating the amount of chocolate that I have has never really effected my weight.

I knew this day was coming.. but really figured it was a long way away. Not only does it appear that my scale has broken because the needle keeps going up instead of down or just staying the same. I actually don't feel great after I have eaten the food of the Gods.

So my goal is to cut out all sweets from Monday to Friday and let the weekends be my chocolate days. As I write this it seems so simple. I just say NO to those craving's NO NO NO!!!!

I ask all my friends, family and fellow bloggers to help me with my chocolate obsession. Today will be day one so lets see how I do .. I will try and be honest each day and let you know if I have succeeded or have failed...

Keep your finger and toes crossed.

This Time Of The Year

O.K so this has to be the best and worst time of the year for m

How can a person find any wrong with this time of the year? Firstly the sun starts to hang around later which makes for longer and warmer days. Morning's are so much better when you wake up to the sunshine instead of darkness. Then there's that smell of rain for the first time. As it hits the dry pavement outside and the ping of if hitting your windows for the first time of the year and in those rain drops with it's magical powers it starts turning the brown grass into a beautiful oasis of green. It's waking up one morning and looking outside your window and realizing those brown sticks now have beautiful green buds on them and literal over night you realize that all the leaves are opening and the spring flower's are blowing in the breeze.

So how on earth can this possibly be the worst time... It's Called ALLERGIES!!!!! As I wake up to that sunshine I was telling you about I can't see it until I go and wash the crust out of my eyes. Then once I have done that lets not forget the itching and ruby of those baby blues. A simple thing like opening up the window to smell the fresh rain or the wonderful spring leaves and flower's sends my nose running everywhere. But the worst of all is the itching on the roof of my mouth... my tongue is raw trying to relieve some of this discomfort, at times like this I litterly want to crawl out of my skin!!!!

Allergies are like contractions, let me explain. When you are in labour the pain at times can be ... well lets just say it's the worst of the worst!!! And you are told that once that baby is delivered you won't remember wanting to be put out of your misery because you have this wonderful child in your arms. I was VERY sceptical about this and when I was in labour both time's I couldn't imagine not remembering the pain, but the fact is I had two beautiful children so I guess I forgot the pain from the first child. Spring for me is like this. Each year in February I start looking at the calendar knowing that next month the first day of spring will be here. I start to remember the rain, that fresh smell. Those bright long sunny days the pool will be opening soon. The funny thing is I never seem to remember the ALLERGIES!!!! Not until I am walking around and my eyes start to itch, my nose starts running and the roof of my mouth is driving me crazy do I start to get that feeling of wanting to be put out of my misery.

So to all those people out there who are suffer's like myself I feel your ITCH!!! For those who are blessed enough and do not suffer from ALLERGIES, I say this " I AM NOT IMPRESSED!!!!! ha ha

The Cannon Ball Queens!!!!!

A Great Playdate

What a great day. Reegan had her school friend Abby over for a play date today. They started off with pizza and strawberries. I had intended the strawberries for dessert but the girls couldn't wait and eat them with there pizza. I have never seen berries go so fast.

Our weather was not the best today... cloudy and cool but at least it didn't rain. The girls didn't mind the pool was warm and they had lots of energy to get ride of. Abby is our Cannon Ball Queen, even with the cool tempt outside it didn't stop her from getting out of the pool long enough to show us a great Cannon Ball. Abby had great fun throwing things into the water and getting Reegan to dive done and get them.

After a great swim the girls decided to switch clothes ... it might be hard but can you tell who's who!!!!! ha ha

Nothing To Much

Well the most exciting thing this week was me trying to figure out this blackberry the kids got me for Mother's Day. I am actually using it to add this post. I have a new cell so I had to make sure the Alberta Children Services had it. When the time comes I don't want them saying the could not get a hold of me. David is crazy busy, and although we are very grateful for the work I fear he is becoming too over worked. This month seems to be going by so slowing, and it's starting to drive me nuts.
Sent on the TELUS Mobility network with BlackBerry

WAYS TO LOVE A CHILD

Give your presence

Laugh, dance and sing together

Listen from a heart space

Encourage

Understand

Allow them to love themselves

Ask their opinions

Learn form them

Say yes as often as possible

Say no when necessary

Honour their No's

Apologize

Touch gently

Build lots of blanket forts

Open up

Fly kites together

Lighten up

Believe in possibilities

Read books out loud

Create a circle of quiet

Teach feelings

Share your dreams

Walk in the rain

Celebrate mistakes

Admit your

Frame their artwork

Stay up late together

Eliminate comparison

Delight in silliness

handle with care

Protect them

Cherish their innocence

Giggle

speak kindly

go swimming

Splash

Let them help

Let them cry

Don't hide your tears

Brag about them

Answer their questions

Let them go when it time

Let them come back

Show compassion

Bend down to talk to little children

Smile even when you're tired

Surprise with a special lunch

Don't judge their Friends

Give them enough room to make decisions

Love all that they do

Honour their differences

Respect them

Remember that they have not been on earth very long

Beautiful Babies Happy Parents

Introducing Olivia Grace, Shirley must be overjoyed at finally getting to see her.

After waiting 18 months Colleen and Jim finally got there picture of sweet Hannah. She is cut beyond words. I am so excited from them!!!!

My hope ... My wish.... My dream... is that next month I too can put our daughter's picture on this blog so you can all see our sweet girl... Right now at this exact minute she is somewhere in China not even aware of the fact that very soon she will be coming home to a brother and sister two cats and a mother and father who have been waiting two years to meet her. Not to mention her Aunts, Uncle, and Grandparents. Maybe the CCAA has already matched our file to her, and it sits in a pile on a desk waiting to be put with the rest of the referrals for June. Maybe tomorrow they will pick our dossier up and match us to you, what ever the process I know you will be our's to see next month.

Sweet Dreams my little China Doll!!!!

Just Lazy Days By The Pool

We had another great day weather wise today +25 very Little wind and the sun was shining all day. After lunch we spend the rest of the afternoon at the pool.

Here's a picture of Ryker chatting with his friend with his drink safely secured in the chairs cup holder. Pre-teens are here to stay..

After an intense workout in the pool playing tag with her brother and me, Reegan decided to take a break on the lounge chair.

I hope everyone were every you are will have the best of days today.

Mother's Day Tea

What a great day!!! On Friday morning Reegan's Preschool held a Mother's Day Tea. IT was great to see all the kids so excited to have there mother's there.

The kids sang us songs and after that we sat down to some juice and ice tea and lots of goodies. It was a great time to see the kids all together and to get a chance to chat with the other mom's...

Reegan made me some lovely gifts and she planted a Marigold for our patio.

I want to wish my Mother the best of Mother's Day's
Remember mom even though I am the way I am, I Love you very much "In a Wendy sort of Way"!!!!


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO EVERYONE!!!!!

Daisey Duck having a nice stroll!!! I am taking this as a good sign of good things to come!!!!

Good evening everyone... First off I need to say a BIG sorry to my dear Sister Debbie. You see my sister and I talk on the phone at least once a day sometimes twice and we also chat on MSN daily as well. So she is usually the first one to know anything that is going on in my life. Actually I believe I called her first when I found out I was pregnant with Reegan, even before I told David. Anyway... I made the mistake of putting in my blog yesterday that I had gone shopping and even showed the world what I purchased. So my sister found out with the rest of the world. You guessed it.. she was not impressed.

So Debbie my dear sister ... I am truly sorry, I am not worthy of your forgiveness but I beg for your forgiveness. I am on my knees as I type this and tears are welling in my eyes.. If I had a whip I would lash myself a 1000 times as a punishment. I am sorry.. sorry.. sorry.

P.S. I hope this mishap has not changed the statues of my Peanut Butter Balls?????

Well now that I got that off my chest I can tell you about the rest of my day. Summer had arrived for us today and you guested it the kids spend all there spare time swimming in the pool. That pool was the best thing we did for our family, I recommend everyone get one. Now here's the cut part. As I was putting the pool cover over the pool our Mother Duck came flying along getting herself ready for a landing when she realized there was something and someone by the pool. Daisey "that's the name Reegan as named her" Very original don't you think?" Anyway Daisey made a very quick maneuver and landed in our next door neighbours yard and she stayed there until I finished covering the pool.

Not five minuets after I had gone inside but Daisey flew over the fence and onto the pool cover and proceeded to drink, have a nice stroll about the pool and then take a nap. I figure the warmth of the pool would prevent the ducks from going in... we keep it at 88 degrees or for my US blogger's that's 32C. I did managed to get some pictures and a video of this.

Seeing as I have already spoken to my sister tonight I can also tell you I went shopping today. This time for baby clothes. I had a blast, but maybe some of you mothers out there who have already adopted from China could tell me what sizes I should be getting. We are assuming she will be between 10 to 12 months when we get her. I am also assuming that these little ones will be a bit smaller in size compared to our North American babies. So if anyone out there could let me know that would be great.

So after two years I finally decided it was O.K. to get some baby stuff. I have been putting it off because I really didn't want to get my hopes up and then be disappointed as each month went by. But I am feeling very certain that next month we will finally see our little girls picture.


So after I dropped Reegan off at Preschool, I headed strait to Wal-Mart to get some of the things that are on our list to take for our trip to China. My feelings were the same as when I found out I was pregnant with both of my biological children. I am happy,,, actually giddy with excitement to be going into the baby department.

I arrive with my list and pen... The baby department was very busy .. with lots of mom's to be walking around. I found a few things ... some undershirts, baby shampoo stuff like that.

Then BAM!!! it hits me! Suddenly I feel like a fraud around all these other woman who are pregnant. I feel like I am an old barren woman just longing to have had a child but can't and just wonder's around the baby department looking at baby stuff. This was the worst feeling ever... in the past I was always pregnant when I went shopping.. and I was usually showing so other people could see that there was a good reason for me to be buying baby stuff.

It didn't feel real... I felt like I was pretending ... It was a horrible feeling and I wanted it to go away fast. I just wanted everyone in there to know that I was Paper Pregnant. That I was going to be a New mom.. I had just as much right to be there as all the pregnant women did.

I am not sure if this feeling is a normal one for mother's who are adopting. Maybe because I have actually been pregnant and this is so different it felt so strange. I really don't know. The feeling did pass and I truly hope it never returns.

Now being true to the woman inside of me this feeling DID NOT prevent me from the task at hand. I did manage to get some of the things on the list.

I also started to go through Reegan's old cloths to see if I had any small sizes put away. I had given some away over the years. It appears the I have NOTHING!!! the smallest size I could find was 2T. I am unsure about sizes because I assume she will be between 10 and 12 months in age, but I have heard that the babies are typically smaller then our little ones.

So that was my first day baby shopping, I will not give up... I will endeavour to go out again and spend more of my husband hard earned money.. I will enjoy swiping that card along the card reader... I will take pride in the fact that I can still see my toes! I will relish in the fact that I don't have to get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom because the baby is lying on my bladder... I AM PAPER PREGNANT and proud of it.!!!!!

Let's Not Forget About The Ducks

Days Like Today

Well if this isn't decadent that I don't know what is. I am writing this blog outside sitting on my deck while my kids swim in the pool. The sun is shining, the temperature is +24.

The kids have been waiting and waiting for almost six months to get back into the pool and today was the day.

Reegan went in without any hesitation, which was a huge change from last year when she first went in. She was very nervous about the pool but by the end of the summer she was a fish.

Ryker was more timid about the temperature of the water. "Which by the way is heated to a lovely 88 degrees" He took his time floating on his tubby and then finally made the plunge. His verdict about the temp is it's still not warm enough. You see last year we had the pool at 90 degrees and this year we are trying 88 degrees... Ryker is firm that those two degrees make all the difference.

DADDY'S POEM

Daddy's Poem

Her hair was up in a pony tail,

her favorite dress tied with a bow.

Today was Daddy's Day at school,

and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,

that she probably should stay home.

Why the kids might not understand,

if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;

she knew just what to say.

What to tell her classmates

of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,

for her to face this day alone.

And that was why once again,

she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school

eager to tell them all.

About a dad she never sees

a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,

for everyone to meet.

Children squirming impatiently,

anxious in their seats

One by one the teacher called

a student from the class.

To introduce their daddy,

as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,

every child turned to stare.

Each of them was searching,

a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?"

She heard a boy call out.

"She probably doesn't have one

another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,

she heard

a daddy say,

"Looks like another deadbeat dad,

too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,

as she smiled up at her Mom.

And looked back at her

teacher,

who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,

slowly she began to speak.

And out from the mouth of a child,

came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here,

because he lives so far away.

But I know he wishes he could be,

since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,

I wanted you to know.

All about my daddy,

and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories

he taught me to ride my bike.

He surprised me with pink roses,

and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,

and ice cream in a cone.

And though you cannot see him.

I'm not standing here alone.

"Cause my daddy's always with me,

even though we are apart

I know because he told me,

he'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up,

and lay across her chest.

Feeling her own heartbeat,

beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,

her mother stood in tears.

Proudly watching her daughter,

who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life.

Doing what was best for her,

what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,

staring straight into the crowd.

She finished with a voice so soft,

but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,

he's my shining star.

And if he could, he'd be here,

but heaven's just too far.

You see he is a Marine and died

just this past year

When a roadside bomb hit his convoy

and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,

it's like he never went away.

And then she closed her eyes,

and saw him there that day.

And to her mothers amazement,

she witnessed with surprise.

A room full of daddies and children,

all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,

who knows what they felt inside.

Perhaps for merely a second,

they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,

"to the silence she called out.

And what happened next made believers,

of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,

for each of their eyes had been closed.

But there on the desk beside her,

was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed,

if only for a moment, by the love of her shining star.

And given the gift of believing,

that heaven is never too far.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them,

but then an entire life to forget them.

.

Take the time...to live and ! love.

Until eternity. God bless

Congratulations Colleen and Jim!!! Soon you will be traveling to China. We can't wait to see Hannah!!!!

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I am hearing that the next batch of referrals have been sent. Some are saying they got as far as November 1, 2005. Which means we did not make this month. For the past two years I have tried very hard to stay calm, listen to my inner self and realize when this happens it will happen. So why now with it getting so close am I starting to FREAK OUT!!!! Just the news of someone else getting there referral and knowing that we are so close brings me to tears,,, and sometimes those tears are from frustration that it was not us. It's so close I can taste it and yet it still feels like it's forever.

June will be OUR month, that's my mantra for the month of May "JUNE WILL BE OUR MONTH".... JUNE WILL BE OUR MONTH!!!!