I just spoke to Bob at FOI and he has confirmed that we did indeed get on this months ferral list!!!!! To his knowledge they have not yet sent them, but he told me to relax and get ready for her referral next week!!!!! HURRAY!!!!!!!!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
I woke up this morning feeling very confused... you see I feel quite certain that we made the cut for referrals as our LID is November 4 2005 and I get so excited just at the thought that my phone will ring very soon.
On the flip side I have had the pleasure of getting to know some wonderful families from Canada who's LID date's are past the 7th and the rumours are they will not get there referrals. How can this be!!!!
Our agency sent us a list over 18 months ago with names of couples who would most likely be travelling together and over the last 18 months I have kept in contact with some of those couples. I am very discouraged for those families. They have waited as patiently as we have and they certainly don't deserve to have to wait another month.
In truth none of us deserve this wait,, and even more truthful I suppose those little girls and boys did not deserve to be abandon.
I will keep my hopes up and try and think that maybe the rumours are wrong, that the CCAA did get past November 9th.
Posted by Wendy at 6:34 AM
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
If you were to ask David he would say that on most day's I am Forgetful, and on occasions psycho!!
If you were to ask me I would have to fess up to the Bloaty, Sleepy and I think there was a third,, but I just can't seem to remember it!!!!
My dear Sister sent them to me!!! Thanks Debbie
Posted by Wendy at 7:52 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
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Sunday, May 27, 2007
I am not a person who believes in superstitions... I don't believe in bad luck. I do however believe in thinking positive thoughts to get a positive result. So I am not sure were today went wrong. I woke up very positive,,, firstly I got to sleep in which always makes me feel wonderfully refreshed. After a great breakfast I was able to go for a nice walk with the kids. The sun was shining and there was no sign of the snow we had three days ago. After our walk it was off to Reegans Ballet. This my dear friends is where it all started to turn. Now remember at this point I am still feeling and thinking positively. Reegan had gotten her ballet outfit on in record time so unlike most Saturday's I was not running late. As I started down the road with the sun roof open a thought came to me!!! FRAPPACHINO...FRAPPACHINO!!! It was the weekend so I could indulge in a delicious Java Chip Frap with peppermint and whipped cream. I went inside the StarBucks still feeling positive, stopped to notice they now have an orange cream Frap for the summer contemplated getting that instead but kept focused on the mission at hand. I ordered some banana bread for Reegan and decided to order two Fraps so I could get one for my friend Maya to enjoy as well. I was very careful exiting the store with my two Frap's and banana bread.... I managed to get my car door open without any trouble... Then as quickly and as unpredictable as a woman who's PMSing is, one of my two Frap's somehow fell from my hand and EXPLODED everywhere. As I recall it in my mind now it was like a funny movie where the scene slows down and the actor goes into slow motion screaming in a slowed down voice that's very deep saying NOOOOOOOO!!!
Let me tell you I have seen some very BIG messes in my time,, but this my friends was more then I could bare. The entire Frap was on both front seats "Thank God for Leather" I am sure if the sunroof had been closed that to would have been covered. The dash, steering wheel and the carpet covered in chocolate Frap and whipped cream. I took a moment to look back at Reegan who looked shell shocked at the mess. The first thing she said was "I am glade it wasn't my mess" Seeing the distress on my face she did remind me that it was O.K. accidents happen!!! Oh and don't forget we were on are way to Ballet a head of schedule!!! Well that was out the window now.... I must say the staff at StarBucks were great... they even replaced my Frap for free... We managed to get things cleaned up enough to head out for Ballet and only managed to be 5 minuets late.
So the worst for this day must be over right???? Well that's what I thought. I went home and cleaned the car from top to bottom, no problem's accrued while doing this. After that Ryker had a friend over and the kids spend the rest of the day in the pool... All the while I am thinking positive... putting the entire Frap incident out of my mind. Ryker goes out with his friend to see a movie, Reegan goes to bed without a hitch, David and I spend the evening watching TV all is well.
Ryker comes in after the show and I go down the stairs to talk to him... BAM!!!!! I am still not sure how it happened but the next thing I remember is my feet coming from out under me, my bottom landing on the end of the hardwood stair and my upper left shoulder feeling like someone just hit it with a sledge hammer. Down... down... down I went at least five stairs in total... My wonderful son rushed to my side instantly to see if I was OK.
It's strange the things that go through ones mind after a trauma like that. My first though was did I break anything, and was I actually going to through up because it sure felt like I should have. My second thought was "Great David will be going on and on about me insisting on putting hardwood on those stairs" " he was NOT a big supporter of that" So there I lie,, wiggling my fingers and toes to ensure they all work and wondering.
" MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE JUST STAYED IN BED TODAY!!!
Just a note for those of you who feel great sympathy for what happened to me,, you can let me know, and I would be happy to forward my address to you so you can send comforting gifts!!!
1. A PILLOW ( for my but now looking very black and blue)
2. A grown up pair of socks that have the rubber words on the bottom ( so this never happens again)
3. A self cleaning car cleaner if they every make one.
Posted by Wendy at 6:43 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
The last time I felt like this was five days before Christmas Morning last year. Actually I get this feeling every Christmas, I have since I can remember. The difference being my excitement at Christmas was because I new Santa was coming and if I had been very well behaved all year he would try his best to bring me the present I had asked him for.
Well as I sit here typing this out I have that same sense of excitement... The type were you just want to giggle incessantly and for no apparent reason. But I guess I do have a reason. You see I am hoping and praying that in five days we will be on alert!!! Alert for what you ask. Good Question!!! We will be on alert for our phone to ring and on the other end there will be a voice that says those words we have waited two years to hear. "We have your referral" I am smart enough to know that it most likely.... probably not.... it would be a miracle if it did... but we will not hear on the 1st of June... But we Could... couldn't we... I mean why not!!!!! In any case if it's not the 1st it might be the 2nd.. or the 3rd.. Each night that I go to bed will be like Christmas Eve... I will go to sleep each night after the 1st hoping that the next day I will get the gift I am truly hoping for!!!
Merry Adoption Everyone!!!!
Posted by Wendy at 10:05 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Firstly let me say that I love the winter months. I am probably the only one in my family who Love's to see the white stuff fall from the sky.
But people please,,, I wake up this morning to a steaming pool outside and our trees have so much wet snow on them there branches are about to fracture.
I feel so badly for those who last weekend spend there long weekend outside lovingly planting all those summer flowers, and now they have a garden full of frostbitten perennials.
By the end of today most in not all of the snow seems to have melted away and we certainly need the moisture, but really would rain not have sufficed?
I hope everyone else in other Countries, Province's and Cities are having a better weather day then we did.
Posted by Wendy at 5:54 PM
Over the last few weeks, Save Darfur Coalition activists have sent 151,507 emails and faxes to Fidelity Investments, calling on it to cut its ties to companies like PetroChina, that provide financial support to the genocidal Sudanese government.
The result? Fidelity listened!
Last week, Fidelity announced that it had greatly reduced its holdings of PetroChina, one of the "highest offending" companies helping fund the genocide.
This is a truly promising development in the effort to divest for Darfur.
We must keep the pressure on the Chinese government, which is not just the majority shareholder in PetroChina, but also Sudan's largest foreign investor, a major political supporter, and a key arms provider.
In fact, the Chinese government recently demonstrated its support of the Sudanese regime by providing a $13 million loan to build Omar al-Bashir a new presidential palace. Most disturbingly, China sells arms to Sudan, weapons which are used by government forces and the Janjaweed militia to maim and kill innocent Darfuris.
It's time for China to fully invest itself in ending the genocide by using its unmatched influence to convince Sudan to cooperate with international efforts to end the violence and build a lasting peace in Darfur.
Click here http://ga6.org:80/campaign/china_must_act/ixn6d7dr9bk5mxk to send a message urging your representatives in Washington to co-sponsor a resolution calling on China to do its part.
While Fidelity's announcement is a positive step, victory will be achieved only when the people of Darfur are safe.
And China has the power and influence to help make that possible.
China must lead the world in pressuring Sudan to follow through on its commitments to cooperate with international efforts to end the violence.
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Posted by Wendy at 7:50 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
What a great day!!! I certainly didn't have to tell Reegan twice to get up for school. She was more then ready to go on her field Trip. This year the Jr. K's were going to the Telus World of Science.
I was fortunate this year to be able to volunteer. My responsibly was to not lose the three kids I was given to keep a watchful eye on. A big thanks to Reegan, Lindsey and Nicolas for not loosing me!!!!
We all got to ride on a big yellow school bus, (the back of course) I don't remember the last time I was on a school bus.
Things went very smoothly,, the kids had a tone of fun... I personally loved the music floor. How great is a wall you can colour on!!! Reegan tried the bed of nails, (she's so brave). While Nicolas kept busy at the ball launch rearranging the wall. Oh thay also had this really cool Velcro wall with lots of soft shapes to stick on it. I want to find a way to do that in our little ones room what a great idea.
It was very interesting to eat lunch at a table of five year old's. Firstly I can't remember the last time I had to pack a lunch for myself and having to set a good example I couldn't exactly pack if full of junk. But in the end,,, all the food was eaten and no major spills. My man Nicolas was quite the gentleman, he shared all his goodies with the two girls, I have to say way to go Lori, you pack a good lunch!!!
We finished off the day with a movie in the science dome. The bus ride home did not disappoint, there were tones of bumps along the way, which made for riding in the back a very exciting trip.
I was so glade to be able to participate in this years field trip, the kids were great and it's always fun to watch them explore and have fun amongst themselves.
Thank's Reegan, Lindsey and Nicolas for being such great listeners!!!!!!!
Posted by Wendy at 2:43 PM
I am looking for a good book on attachment!!! I want to read up on what to look for and how I can assist with her bonding with us.
If you have read any good books on this please let me know.
Posted by Wendy at 6:08 AM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
O.K so this has to be the best and worst time of the year for m
How can a person find any wrong with this time of the year? Firstly the sun starts to hang around later which makes for longer and warmer days. Morning's are so much better when you wake up to the sunshine instead of darkness. Then there's that smell of rain for the first time. As it hits the dry pavement outside and the ping of if hitting your windows for the first time of the year and in those rain drops with it's magical powers it starts turning the brown grass into a beautiful oasis of green. It's waking up one morning and looking outside your window and realizing those brown sticks now have beautiful green buds on them and literal over night you realize that all the leaves are opening and the spring flower's are blowing in the breeze.
So how on earth can this possibly be the worst time... It's Called ALLERGIES!!!!! As I wake up to that sunshine I was telling you about I can't see it until I go and wash the crust out of my eyes. Then once I have done that lets not forget the itching and ruby of those baby blues. A simple thing like opening up the window to smell the fresh rain or the wonderful spring leaves and flower's sends my nose running everywhere. But the worst of all is the itching on the roof of my mouth... my tongue is raw trying to relieve some of this discomfort, at times like this I litterly want to crawl out of my skin!!!!
Allergies are like contractions, let me explain. When you are in labour the pain at times can be ... well lets just say it's the worst of the worst!!! And you are told that once that baby is delivered you won't remember wanting to be put out of your misery because you have this wonderful child in your arms. I was VERY sceptical about this and when I was in labour both time's I couldn't imagine not remembering the pain, but the fact is I had two beautiful children so I guess I forgot the pain from the first child. Spring for me is like this. Each year in February I start looking at the calendar knowing that next month the first day of spring will be here. I start to remember the rain, that fresh smell. Those bright long sunny days the pool will be opening soon. The funny thing is I never seem to remember the ALLERGIES!!!! Not until I am walking around and my eyes start to itch, my nose starts running and the roof of my mouth is driving me crazy do I start to get that feeling of wanting to be put out of my misery.
So to all those people out there who are suffer's like myself I feel your ITCH!!! For those who are blessed enough and do not suffer from ALLERGIES, I say this " I AM NOT IMPRESSED!!!!! ha ha
Posted by Wendy at 3:00 PM
Friday, May 18, 2007
What a great day. Reegan had her school friend Abby over for a play date today. They started off with pizza and strawberries. I had intended the strawberries for dessert but the girls couldn't wait and eat them with there pizza. I have never seen berries go so fast.
Posted by Wendy at 3:00 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Well the most exciting thing this week was me trying to figure out this blackberry the kids got me for Mother's Day. I am actually using it to add this post. I have a new cell so I had to make sure the Alberta Children Services had it. When the time comes I don't want them saying the could not get a hold of me. David is crazy busy, and although we are very grateful for the work I fear he is becoming too over worked. This month seems to be going by so slowing, and it's starting to drive me nuts.
Sent on the TELUS Mobility network with BlackBerry
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Monday, May 14, 2007
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Sunday, May 13, 2007
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Saturday, May 12, 2007
I hope everyone were every you are will have the best of days today.
Posted by Wendy at 5:44 PM
What a great day!!! On Friday morning Reegan's Preschool held a Mother's Day Tea. IT was great to see all the kids so excited to have there mother's there.
The kids sang us songs and after that we sat down to some juice and ice tea and lots of goodies. It was a great time to see the kids all together and to get a chance to chat with the other mom's...
Reegan made me some lovely gifts and she planted a Marigold for our patio.
I want to wish my Mother the best of Mother's Day's
Remember mom even though I am the way I am, I Love you very much "In a Wendy sort of Way"!!!!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO EVERYONE!!!!!
Posted by Wendy at 5:31 PM
Friday, May 11, 2007
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Thursday, May 10, 2007
Posted by Wendy at 8:54 PM
Good evening everyone... First off I need to say a BIG sorry to my dear Sister Debbie. You see my sister and I talk on the phone at least once a day sometimes twice and we also chat on MSN daily as well. So she is usually the first one to know anything that is going on in my life. Actually I believe I called her first when I found out I was pregnant with Reegan, even before I told David. Anyway... I made the mistake of putting in my blog yesterday that I had gone shopping and even showed the world what I purchased. So my sister found out with the rest of the world. You guessed it.. she was not impressed.
So Debbie my dear sister ... I am truly sorry, I am not worthy of your forgiveness but I beg for your forgiveness. I am on my knees as I type this and tears are welling in my eyes.. If I had a whip I would lash myself a 1000 times as a punishment. I am sorry.. sorry.. sorry.
P.S. I hope this mishap has not changed the statues of my Peanut Butter Balls?????
Well now that I got that off my chest I can tell you about the rest of my day. Summer had arrived for us today and you guested it the kids spend all there spare time swimming in the pool. That pool was the best thing we did for our family, I recommend everyone get one. Now here's the cut part. As I was putting the pool cover over the pool our Mother Duck came flying along getting herself ready for a landing when she realized there was something and someone by the pool. Daisey "that's the name Reegan as named her" Very original don't you think?" Anyway Daisey made a very quick maneuver and landed in our next door neighbours yard and she stayed there until I finished covering the pool.
Not five minuets after I had gone inside but Daisey flew over the fence and onto the pool cover and proceeded to drink, have a nice stroll about the pool and then take a nap. I figure the warmth of the pool would prevent the ducks from going in... we keep it at 88 degrees or for my US blogger's that's 32C. I did managed to get some pictures and a video of this.
Seeing as I have already spoken to my sister tonight I can also tell you I went shopping today. This time for baby clothes. I had a blast, but maybe some of you mothers out there who have already adopted from China could tell me what sizes I should be getting. We are assuming she will be between 10 to 12 months when we get her. I am also assuming that these little ones will be a bit smaller in size compared to our North American babies. So if anyone out there could let me know that would be great.
Posted by Wendy at 8:32 PM
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
So after two years I finally decided it was O.K. to get some baby stuff. I have been putting it off because I really didn't want to get my hopes up and then be disappointed as each month went by. But I am feeling very certain that next month we will finally see our little girls picture.
So after I dropped Reegan off at Preschool, I headed strait to Wal-Mart to get some of the things that are on our list to take for our trip to China. My feelings were the same as when I found out I was pregnant with both of my biological children. I am happy,,, actually giddy with excitement to be going into the baby department.
I arrive with my list and pen... The baby department was very busy .. with lots of mom's to be walking around. I found a few things ... some undershirts, baby shampoo stuff like that.
Then BAM!!! it hits me! Suddenly I feel like a fraud around all these other woman who are pregnant. I feel like I am an old barren woman just longing to have had a child but can't and just wonder's around the baby department looking at baby stuff. This was the worst feeling ever... in the past I was always pregnant when I went shopping.. and I was usually showing so other people could see that there was a good reason for me to be buying baby stuff.
It didn't feel real... I felt like I was pretending ... It was a horrible feeling and I wanted it to go away fast. I just wanted everyone in there to know that I was Paper Pregnant. That I was going to be a New mom.. I had just as much right to be there as all the pregnant women did.
I am not sure if this feeling is a normal one for mother's who are adopting. Maybe because I have actually been pregnant and this is so different it felt so strange. I really don't know. The feeling did pass and I truly hope it never returns.
Now being true to the woman inside of me this feeling DID NOT prevent me from the task at hand. I did manage to get some of the things on the list.
I also started to go through Reegan's old cloths to see if I had any small sizes put away. I had given some away over the years. It appears the I have NOTHING!!! the smallest size I could find was 2T. I am unsure about sizes because I assume she will be between 10 and 12 months in age, but I have heard that the babies are typically smaller then our little ones.
So that was my first day baby shopping, I will not give up... I will endeavour to go out again and spend more of my husband hard earned money.. I will enjoy swiping that card along the card reader... I will take pride in the fact that I can still see my toes! I will relish in the fact that I don't have to get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom because the baby is lying on my bladder... I AM PAPER PREGNANT and proud of it.!!!!!
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Tuesday, May 8, 2007
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Thursday, May 3, 2007
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Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Congratulations Colleen and Jim!!! Soon you will be traveling to China. We can't wait to see Hannah!!!!
Posted by Wendy at 9:38 PM
I am hearing that the next batch of referrals have been sent. Some are saying they got as far as November 1, 2005. Which means we did not make this month. For the past two years I have tried very hard to stay calm, listen to my inner self and realize when this happens it will happen. So why now with it getting so close am I starting to FREAK OUT!!!! Just the news of someone else getting there referral and knowing that we are so close brings me to tears,,, and sometimes those tears are from frustration that it was not us. It's so close I can taste it and yet it still feels like it's forever.
June will be OUR month, that's my mantra for the month of May "JUNE WILL BE OUR MONTH".... JUNE WILL BE OUR MONTH!!!!
Posted by Wendy at 7:34 PM